About 4:50 Thursday morning, my Dad called.
"Did I wake you up?"
Of course he did, but he wouldn't do so without reason. He was calling from the ER; doctors found a tumor in my bother's neck.
There isn't a good way to take news like that.
I managed to go to work, but I could barely function. My body was in my cubicle but my mind was absent. I went home early, at least there I could exist without cognitive effort. Bekah gave me the freedom to sit and sort through my thoughts.
Every now and then, I hear the right song at the right moment that speaks the right words. It's the kind of song that voices emotions that I couldn't describe on my own. I found that song Thursday afternoon.
I got home, sat down at my computer, and started reading through other people's blogs. And this song was posted on Stuff Christian's Like. I listened to it and just completely lost it. In the four days since, I've watched this video a dozen times. If you want to know how I feel about what my brother is going through, this song says it better than I ever could.
(ps, if you have a hard time making sense of the lyrics - you can read them HERE)